My nest is closer to being empty

My daughter has achieved an amazing accomplishment and we are so very PROUD of her. She received her letter of acceptance to Queen's University...her 1st choice and it was an early acceptance at that :D

Why then am I feeling so sad? I'm happy that she is about to embark on her life's journey but sad that my time with her is coming to an end. I know we will always have a close bond but it will never be the same.

I have pushed her all her life to try harder, be the best that she can be and now that she has I feel like I'm losing her.

I guess after already sending my oldest two on their way to adulthood, I realize that once they finish high school the next logical step is leaving home and growing up. Foolishly I feel like my time with her (being her mama, closest confidante) is coming to an abrupt end.

This feeling will pass but I can't help starting the count down until she leaves...149 days lol

Life is always changing and I have to change with it...I will put on my big girl pants and make sure that I'm always postitive with her and as the penguins from Madagascar say "smile and wave, just smile and wave" :)

Today my baby graduates ~ Senior Kindergarten!

I can hardly believe that the time has passed so quickly...my baby is going to be going to school full time in 4 short weeks. I don't know about him but I am NOT ready for this milestone!

He hardly slept last night with excitment about his graduation ceremony today...
It's different with girls you find a beautiful dress, do their hair in their favourite style and they look like little princesses. With a boy you cut their hair, pick out a clean t-shirt and they are good to go.

I am feeling kind of meloncholy today!

Funny how inherently attached to our children we are. The pride we feel in their accomplishments is almost as if we are the one who achieved the goal. When they fail we experience the pain as much as they do, possibly more intensely.

I know that people think that I talk about my kids a lot, but they can't comprehend the depth of my pride in them. They don't realize where I came from or what challenges I faced to reach the person I have become. That my children are whole, healthy and highly functioning people is perhaps MY greatest triumph.

The youngest is about as sweet as they come, but he is also very competitive and very gifted athletically. He started lacrosse this May is really quite outstanding at the game. Not only does he play well he is also very fair minded and will stop and help someone up when they fall. He stands out during the games and has been awarded MVP in all of the games he has played in. He started soccer last night and once again dominated the field scored 3 of the 4 goals and was chosen Player of the Game. I was just about busting with pride!

Is it wrong that my identity is so tied to who they are and will become??

Congratulations to my girl!

The song she wrote for the SASS contest (theme bullying) was chosen top 10!

What an amazing night of listening to music created by such talented youth & how gracious they all were complimenting each other and just supporting the fact that each on of them had put it all out there for people to see.

Enjoy the song!


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